Let ME Out

I need some pampering. Not just my nails done, but maybe a new, awesome massage. I need to do some things for me. I love to go out to dinner - I need to do that more but it's slim pickings where I live to go out to eat for dinner as there aren't many friends that live near me. I am also not one to ask for help for anything and even asking someone to go to dinner makes me feel like I am intruding on their time.

I have been super depressed for just over two weeks.
When will it subside?
When will it end?

I have had episodes of depression in my life before, but this one is brutal. I haven't smiled in so long. I want to get out of this funk.

What will be the trigger?
When will it occur?

The good thing is I am getting a lot done at work and I am sleeping. But, I am sad for some reason.

I need to put the ME back in Melinda. Giving 110% to every aspect of my life but myself is taking it's toll. I'm taking steps, but I still don't feel up to par.

I feel so alone.

I can't wait for this to go away. I am ready!

Backyard Trees

My Mom and I have finally figured out that I do not have time to work on the lawn anymore - I am just too short on time but don't want to get another citation from the lovely owner's association.

So, we hired a couple of kids in the neighborhood who do this for other neighbors as well and we feel quite proud allowing them to make a little extra money. However, I only mowed the backyard once or twice in ONE year so by the time I finally gave in to the kids asking if I wanted my backyard to be mowed, it was WAY overdue. WAY.

Here, see for yourself:




Pretty damn funny to me!!! I told my Mom -well, you wanted some trees in the backyard. LOL! Of course, I wondered how the dog was handling the weeds and tall grass and thought she was prolly having trouble going to the bathroom with such interference. hehe. Anyway, some fertilizer and one cut so far has led to a great looking backyard. :)

Airport Female Bathrooms

They are not made for women. We drag our luggage, walk to a stall, and the door opens INword. Yes, IN! That means I have to try and drag my suitcase and my rolling laptop bag inside the bathroom with me as they barely fit past the door for me to close it. I can pull it in, but then the door can't close. I'm stuck between the door, toilet, and luggage. WTF.

Every time this happens I want to bitch and moan. I have finally decided to just leave my suitcases outside the door. I can no longer frustrate myself by arm wrestling with my luggage and fighting to close the door, while trying to get them inside the stall because it's simply physically impossible. Argh!

More Good Advice!

From my friend Shayla:

"If you want to change the way you feel about people, you have to change the way you treat them" - Anne Lamont

Stop-Loss on Worries

From klockdoc on the AZB forums:

Here is a saying that makes a lot of sense to me.

Put a "STOP-LOSS" order on your worries. Decide just how much anxiety a thing may be worth--and refuse to give it any more.

From Dale Carnegie

You can only worry about things to a certain point. They are either going to happen...or not. Make your plans for the worse case scenario, then accept the results. Worrying never makes it easier to accept...just prolongs the anxiety.

Very Interesting....

I read this today, wanted to share:

Happiness is easy..we just have to decide to be.

Lip Liner

I was out of the country for work in a warm climate so I didn't wear lip liner the whole week and just kept all my make up simple.

I am back now and have continued to not wear lip liner and after 4 days (the weekend and two days at work), I've decided I do not like it. Starting tomorrow - lip liner will be used again. :)