Minute of My Thoughts - Caring

I shared yesterday this Minute with Maxwell leadership tip about Caring. Watch the short minute video clip here.

It doesn't just resonate with leadership, but also for me right now about my personal life. "Caring" is probably that "thing" that rears it's head sometimes directly related to my childhood.

I think what I wish for most is for someone who not only cares about me, but also shows me they care. And also remembers me on certain days.

Heck, maybe all females are like this? Heck, maybe all humans want this. But with no family left who might have been that person for me, and no friends who do this, it just makes the desire even stronger, I guess.

I don't dwell on it or let it get me down (I have too many blessings I'm grateful for!). It's simply just a fact I live with.

Not the end of the world, either. Plus, I know many of my friends care about me and think of me, but they have their own lives to live; and that's how it should be!

I learned recently not to get hurt over those things. Otherwise, I will just lose more friends. So, instead, I just don't take it personal or let the hurt get too strong.

I did look at Lily last weekend and start sobbing.... my heart was full of such deep love!.... knowing and feeling she unconditionally loves me and shows me she cares about me all the time. She really rescued me! She's been truly the most amazing blessing for me. I cry with her sometimes because I can feel how close we are and that we love each other.

I think this "caring thing" is more of just a beautiful wish that someday a guy might be in my life and show me they care, tell me they think of me, and reach out to me on certain days (good or tough).

And I'm okay with that.

I have been blessed to even know what this feels like - several ex boyfriends had been like this in the beginning of our relationship.

Minute with Melinda

After I'm Gone...

What About MY Ashes?

My Mom had a wish for her ashes.  For me to spread them across the Frio River in the Texas Hill Country.

She wanted a Viking Funeral, she always would joke to me.

I did that for her Sept of 2012.  One of the hardest things I have ever had to do was spread her ashes.

Here's me holding her ashes as I got in the car to make the trip.

 

Makes me burst into tears seeing these photos, honestly.

Recently, I visited the Frio River in May and had a GREAT time visiting my childhood weekend home.

I then found out a friend of mine, Tammy Gregory, said that she knows of the Frio River also and that she and some friends even threw her cousins' ashes in the Frio.  I was SHOCKED she had done this, also!

A couple of weeks later, I had an epiphany.

I sent her a message and asked her if she would do me a favor.  When I pass away, could she please take my ashes to the Frio River and spread them there so I can be with my Mom (man it's tough to write this and not cry!).

She said she was "beyond honored"  I asked her and honestly, *I* am the one who is deeply honored.  I can't even being to express how much this means to me.

You see, it's just me in my life (no family, no roommate, no bf/ etc), so this REALLY means a lot that I can depend on someone to ensure that I am with my Mom.  (more tears)

Because Tammy and I have a connection with the Frio River being in our past, and Tammy lives life to the fullest, it means a lot she would do this for me.

I am so honestly moved beyond words can even remotely describe.

Thank you, Tammy!