It doesn't just resonate with leadership, but also for me right now about my personal life. "Caring" is probably that "thing" that rears it's head sometimes directly related to my childhood.
I think what I wish for most is for someone who not only cares about me, but also shows me they care. And also remembers me on certain days.
Heck, maybe all females are like this? Heck, maybe all humans want this. But with no family left who might have been that person for me, and no friends who do this, it just makes the desire even stronger, I guess.
I don't dwell on it or let it get me down (I have too many blessings I'm grateful for!). It's simply just a fact I live with.
Not the end of the world, either. Plus, I know many of my friends care about me and think of me, but they have their own lives to live; and that's how it should be!
I learned recently not to get hurt over those things. Otherwise, I will just lose more friends. So, instead, I just don't take it personal or let the hurt get too strong.
I did look at Lily last weekend and start sobbing.... my heart was full of such deep love!.... knowing and feeling she unconditionally loves me and shows me she cares about me all the time. She really rescued me! She's been truly the most amazing blessing for me. I cry with her sometimes because I can feel how close we are and that we love each other.
I think this "caring thing" is more of just a beautiful wish that someday a guy might be in my life and show me they care, tell me they think of me, and reach out to me on certain days (good or tough).
And I'm okay with that.
I have been blessed to even know what this feels like - several ex boyfriends had been like this in the beginning of our relationship.
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