Invitiation of People in Your Life

John Edwards's daughter, Cate, recently talked about the "situation" that her parents went through. You know, when John had an affair, didn't admit to it, fathered a child, then admitted to it, blah blah.

This blog isn't about John or the affair, it's about an interesting comment his daughter stated that I hadn't considered from that point of view before. As read from People.com, Cate said, "There are the things she (her Mom) taught without words." Like "how to continue to live your life on your own terms when it somehow becomes savaged by people you never invited into it."

For some reason, that statement is very intriguing to me because it's such an different perspective. She isn't blaming the other woman or talking negatively about her in that sentence. Instead she views the woman in a very non judgmental way, as simply someone who was "never invited into it (their life)."

If many of us could consider such a perspective about people in our lives, I think it might help us in some certain situations in regard to our emotions and feelings, thoughts and concerns.

More Writing?

I want to write more over here. It's my therapy. It is an open blog so I can't be too specific all the time regarding my feelings/emotions/hurt about/over certain people, but writing things down is helpful for me to get through things. I love to read through my previous blog entries that contain helpful quotes and sayings - they are great reminders for tough times!!

Anyhow, I hope I do start to write more over here. I need to figure some things out in my head. I've hurt a lot of people this year and been hurt by others. I think I need to do some inward discovery. Or something.

Disappeared

There is this channel on satellite/cable called ID (Investigation Discovery). It is basically a bunch of crime shows: Dateline, 48 Hours, Crimes of Passion, Solved, Hollywood Crime, Extreme Forensics, Unusual Suspects, Child Murderers, etc. Kind of like that show Snapped, but it's a whole channel about not just female criminals, but all kinds and how the crimes are solved and who is caught and/or not caught.

I can literally watch the channel all day long. For some reason, I find it intriguing. It sounds weird and morbid I know, but the stories are heart wrenching and intriguing at the same time.

HOWEVER.... there is one show on ID I will not watch. It's called: "Disappeared." You can gather that the show is about people who disappear. I can't watch that show. I think one of THE most painful ways to lose someone would be is if they disappeared. I realize that if someone passes away from a car crash, murder, disease, etc. etc. is brutal for the family members. But for some reason, I think disappearance would be the most difficult for family members.

So, I cannot fathom even accidentally stopping on the ID channel when that particular show is on. Show me the crimes and murders, but my heart cannot handle the unbearing thought that parents must feel if their child (no matter if 3, 5, 12, 18, or 30 years old) go "missing."

I would be looking my whole life for a sister, brother, Mom, Dad or child if they all of a sudden one day disappeared. I don't have sisters or brothers, or children, but I still know deep in my heart that this would be so difficult to live with. I would look every person in the face everywhere I went, I would look in cars as I drove down the street, check the internet, bother police every day, and do my own searches and searches. Every day it would consume me; every night I would not be able to sleep. For years and years until I die I would be consumed and disturbed about my missing loved one.

You may think I know someone who has had a family member who disappeared or went missing but I have not. It's just one of those fears in life I feel for others.

So, you wont ever find me watching the ID Channel when Disappeared is on. Bring on 48 Hours and Extreme Forensics instead.

To Hell With It

You are going to think I am CRAZY, but I LOVE Hellboy II: The Golden Army.

I love the special effects and the SOUNDS! I can go on and on... :)

I never saw Hellboy, the first one, but when I read that Guillermo del Toro was directing Hellboy II, I couldn't wait for it to come out in the movie theatre! Guillermo directed Pan's Labyrinth. That movie, while not for the faint at heart and NOT about Fairies as you might think, had amazing special effects. Additionally, the sounds the creatures made were so impressive! Therefore, I couldn't wait for Hellboy II, and I was not disappointed.

Guillermo with the cast.

HellBoy II is also funny - it has some great, laugh-out-loud parts to it!

My favorite scenes:

• when Hellboy fights Wink in the Troll Alley. Wink has a personality, and it shows in this scene. And the sound effects when he dies ( sorry for the spoiler ) is smart.
• the entire scene with the Forrest God. The special effects, the like-ness to a human, the reactions to words, the SOUNDS he makes, and in the end he creates life. My only regret is we don't hear more sounds from the Forrest God.
• i also liked when Krauss and Hellboy get into it in the locker room, lol.
• of course I love it in the end when the Golden Army comes back to life. You can hear a choo-choo train sound at one point!
• and finally, hearing the leather flaps of Prince Nuada's outfit while he fights and jumps in the last scene is awesome.

HellBoy II comes on all the time on my cable channels. I get all excited when I see on the guide that it will be coming on later that night! :) I can watch it over and over!!